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*this baby call herself STELLA*
*21, but dun look like*
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*can be EMO sometime*
*kinda FRIENDLY at times*
*currently a STUDENT NURSE*

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*Love_to_Study*
*Love_to_Go_Out*
*Love_to_Lead*
*Love_to_Blog*
*Love_to_be_Online*
*Love_to_be_Alone*


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*dun_talk_the_past*
*talks_wif_no_brain*
*acts_wif_no_brain*
*dun_make_sense*
*waste_her_hp_batt*
*dunoe_where_to_be*
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*Gerald*
*Selina*
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*Eunice*
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008 ♥

tim...y can't i ask u go see my blog when u not my bf anymore...i oso tell my other fren to read my blog...my blog is for my frens who really wan to noe how i feel and wat i think...am i right?

as for e sms...i really dunoe u just painly thinking to send it or trying to say smt...how would i noe...if u didnt say sry earlier...

and oso...btw...all along...i keep saying "im sry"...this u shd go see my blog...everyone who noe mi shd noe...and oso..those sms i send it to u...cant u feel tt im trying to say sry and oso trying to be frens wif u...must u make things like this?

dun u dare to blame on leen, serena and damien...if u really blame them...i seriously will think tt i hv made e correct choice by bu wif u...they did not say anything...not even brainwash...they oso think tt u are childish when i let them see ur msg...pls la..not only mi ok???

i noe tt i hurt u alot alot...but still in return...u hv oso hurt mi too...i still will cry for u during this period...forget all abt it...im really very tired of this...

just let mi go...im sry...just get out of my life...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






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sry tim...i actually wanted to keep this quiet...cos i really dun wan to cause more problem...but...i really cant believe wat i see..

ytd..i was damm angry wif tim..i was enjoying myself wif leen and serena at bishan...they were eating thier lunch...then i received his msg...asking mi...if we still can be frens? i was SOO happy to see tt msg...cos i really wan to be his frens...i mean its a gd thing tt he didn't mind..then u all shd noe wat i replied him...THEN U NOE WAT HE REPLIED??? "ok then..go concentrate your damm studies and go enjoy wif ur blooded hell sister"...

i was like...WAT THE HELL...i noe tt u are angry wif mi...i really dun mind u scolding mi...but must u say this kind??? then i told myself...nvm...forget abt it..this normal reaction...cos no matter wat is my fault..then i replied him...ok...

there are more things...but i dun wan to say it all out...during this whole week i was like keep asking damien...did u received any werid calls or msges...anyone veiw ur friendster...anyone write on my blog...tim...or whoever...im seriously VERY tired of this...i mean...i noe tt i did something wrong here...and im ready to receive this kind of this...but i didn't noe tt this person is so CHILDISH...and i seriously HATE this...

tim...i noe tt u wan to scold mi...slap mi...pls do it IN FRONT OF MI...dun do it behind my back...i dun mind de...i will not do anything back...and im serious abt tt...

i think i hv already done finish things for u le...bcos of thing matter...i hv already not being myself...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Tuesday, April 29, 2008 ♥

day2...

mi alone again...haha...leen and serena hving their lessons...dun feel like eating without them...i hv already lost my connection with my stomach le...haha...didn't eat since ytd 2pm i think...haha...yea!!! DIET...^^

then later i gg out with my gfs...^^...they pei mi go shop shop...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Monday, April 28, 2008 ♥

haha...i now still in e sch...i got 4hrs of break...sian...then dunoe y everyone starts to play viwawa...nice meh??? wierd gals...

then just now saw something...i felt sad after reading tt...but thanks to my frens...they stayed beside mi...thanks sis...^^

today is day 1...i dunoe how is he doing...wanting to ask him...but...i noe tt this will make things worst...i noe tt this will be tough on him...but...im sry...tim...i really dun mind u hating mi...pls do go ahead...cos i noe tt it is my fault...

then to tt person...i only can say...im truthlly veri veri sorry...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Sunday, April 27, 2008 ♥

today...i bu wif him...it was kind of diff to tell him...but still i hv to...cos i hv already regetted tt i had hurt him so much...if i agree to his second chance...it will only make thing worst...im really sry...really sry...pls do hate mi...pls...hate mi...just do watever u wan...i wont blame u...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Saturday, April 26, 2008 ♥

he agrees to let mi take a break...i noe very well for myself tt this will be not fair to him...but i really dunoe wat to do...really...maybe making this decision...some of e ppl may hate mi...but i really scare tt it might affect my studies if this continue...really had no idea wat to do now...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Thursday, April 24, 2008 ♥

it seems like my brain get hang very easy this days...getting very stress up...more and more ICA coming up...my chest hurts...XXX...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Tuesday, April 22, 2008 ♥

stuggling still...but i guess anything is settle now...just hv a talk wif tim...then i realised smt...is tt i really love him too much and tt's y...i cant forgive myself...haha...soooo stupid...

we have agreed tt now he will wait for mi to recover...and at e same time...we will be tgt...im recovering means tt i cant make myself to face him...eye to eye...im serious...i really cant do tt...dunoe la...

then dada...it must be very diff for u ba...pls torlerate for awhile...i will be back to my old stella again...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






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i still dunoe wat...i didn't tell damein abt this...cos i think its not fair to tim...so he still dunoe abt this...so pls dun bother to ask him...

thinking tt i should be single again...wanting to re-start all over...

but after thinking wat my tuition teacher told mi...i think ya...right...im still young...i still got a choices...i meeting dada later in e afternoon...still dunoe wat will be my choice...

but seriously...this time around its totally diff from last time when i say i wan to bu...e feeling...i mean like i will keeping thinking...then cry...then call back to tim...ask him to come back to mi...but this time round its diff...i dun even feel like crying...i just being mad at myself...i tried using all kind of thing to hit my head le...still e answer is not there...

i totally lost...i just wish i could like just faint like this...then hv a STM...then start all over again...hate myself...hate it to e core...

GRRRRRRRRRRRR...............................................
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Monday, April 21, 2008 ♥

today is my second week le...lots of things had happened...all is still inside of my brain...very sian...to mi...is more like just wake up from a dream...still wondering...wat just happened...like still blur blur...but i think i will get better...with my frens and my dada...will get better de la...

then...slowly get back to my normal life...i still strongly believe...no matter wat happen...wat is mine is mine...there is no use of keep thinking...^^

keep smiling stella!!!
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






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this past 2 days...had been a most...most confusing days for mi...pactically...i dun really noe wat im doing...but using my heart to manage things...

i had a wonderful day on saturday...i really enjoyed myself...i went out wif my sec frens...they brought mi to alot of places...like kbox, watch movie, walk here and there...even thought i was kind of tired...but...i really like it very much...by e time i reach home...it was round 11.30++...haha...thank u...i really like it very much...i really wish i can go out wif u all again...but i dun think i would hv e chances again...

then ytd...dada...im happy when i heard tt u willing to forgive mi...but...its kind of diff for mi to forgive mi, myself...i just feel ike i nearly became 2 timer...i really dunoe wat to do now...i was really thinking to bu wif u...cos is like not fair to u...i mean...u dun even fling around...but i did...and i really let u down...dunoe how to face u...i do really nid more time to calm myself down...to forget wat e harm i had done to u...to this relationship...if i cant do it...i might say bu...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Wednesday, April 16, 2008 ♥

to gp members,

i wan to say sry to my gp members...cos i will try to work as fast as i can...so maybe there is times tt u all might find mi qiute dunoe how to say la...like i will try to do everything by myself...i got reason de...cos i starts to realised tt my timetable will slowly get very very busy and some of subject might even get crash tgt...so i will try to get things done b4 its too late for mi to do anything for e gp...sry again...hope u gals will understand...^^
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






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still hanging there...haha...ok la...all the teacher still qiute all alright...in which like they are all funny...but a little longwinded...haha...then just ow my HS 1089 teacher said she wan to change e timing fr 2hrs to 3 hrs...waaa...so long man...

then...nth much for today...i'll try my very best to rush everyhing...as fast as i can...like one mad girl...cos this sem...i really cant just sit around like wat i did when im in e first yr...^^

lastly...i wan to say thank u to my dearly gals...serena and leen...really very happy to hv both of u as my frens...really...even though sometime we wont be in e same class...but still u didn't forget about mi...still rmb to book one sit for mi...^^ thank u...love u all..
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Tuesday, April 15, 2008 ♥

today is already second day of sch...ok la...everything is still ok...i only scare my name will not appear for e lecture classes...too busy for anything...i been sick for e past two days le...dunoe y oso...hope tml everything will gone for gd...

i hv already tell dada everything abt mi and demien le...to my surprise...he didn't blame mi...but blaming himself tt bcos of he didn't care of mi much then tts y i move by other guys...dada...is not totally ur fault la...im oso in e wrong oso...but seriously glad tt u willing to hear mi out...^^

then damein...if u happen to see this...i just wan to say thank u...for everything...^^
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Friday, April 11, 2008 ♥

i just wan to re start all over again...i just clear my table stuff...feeling better...dunoe if it little too late...i wan to set smt for myself...
  1. must at least study for 3 hrs everyday...
  2. must not slp in any of e lesson...
  3. must not skip any of the lesson...
  4. must do e correct stuff...
  5. must be a better girlfriend...
  6. must save at least $1 everyday...
  7. think positivly...

i think this shd be it ba...i hope tt i can do all this...^^...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Thursday, April 10, 2008 ♥

this few days...i had been thinking...or rather...recalling back...3 yrs back...when i was gg to take my 'n' level again...i was too blur tt time...cos all my frens level up to sec 5...left mi...alone...repeating was not my decion...it was my mum...i just when in...in a blur state...haha...

i guess...e feeling is e same ba...blur...not sure wat to do...worrying...fighting alone again...alone...kind of bore of this feeling...but now there a new feeling...clearer thoughts...of wat i shd do...and shd not do...

sometimes...i do hate myself...keep asking myself...do i really hv to do this one more time? fighting alone again...alone...hate it...really hate it to core...

but...dada...did tell mi b4...wat had happened...is already happened...there is no point keep thinking...so y not...just enjoy e process...just let it be...wat he mean is...this is life...wat can we do?...keep gg...is e only thing we can do...and suppose to do...

dada...wat u said is correct...wat is e big deal? oh...gals...i only hv 4 new subjects...e other 2 is repeat de...i dunoe when i gg to study tt 2 new ones...but in anycase...i still in sch...in i seriously dun care wat i studying...i mean...at least i still can study...^^ which is wat i hope...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






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gals...i think i should be in e same class la...but i check le...i dun hv 2 subject...cos i nid to retake 2 subject...soooo sian...but anything la...cos i cant affort not to study...i didn't let my family noe abt this...cos i dun think my mum can take it...she is getting weaker after my bro's meet e parent section..his teacher was saying him like always playing~~~then she is not very gd...dun wan to let she feel so stress...

next time then tell her ba...no choice...then i already told tim abt reopen stuff...cant go out every weekend le...must study...study...study...

i asked him...wat if i give up on him bcos of studies...he say...just let mi be...cos this is my choice...studying will decied wat i will become for life...i dunoe wat to say when i heard this...dada...there will be oso a chance of us becoming as one for life...

dunoe la...cos to mi...both u and my family are both equally IMP to mi...really dun wan to lose either one...to imp to lose...and at e same time...family and studies are always tgt...they are stick closely tgt...so...dunoe wat will happen wat...

still i will try not to think of it...cos i have promise u just now...no matter wat comes...i still believe...wat is mine, it will always be mine...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Monday, April 7, 2008 ♥

i sacre...whr am i gg next week??? i still didn't get my supp paper result...my timetable is not out yet...i really dunoe...i just wanna to noe if i get to study anot...

then ytd i went to my fren's house...qiute near to my house actually...smt really shock mi...he noes how to play piano...haha...his playing not bad...he noe how to play some pop song...cool right??? haha...then when i was talking to him...is like talking to a very old fren...like i noe him for very very long le...dunoe la...this is my thinking...dunoe if he think e same as mi anot...haha...then he got this cat...like to slp alot...but still very de cute...haha...

later im gg to amk polyclinice...dunoe wat will happen...i wan to noe more abt my hip problem...it really starts to give mi problem le...i can feel e pain...is just tt i didn't say...really scare mi...when e pain comes...
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Friday, April 4, 2008 ♥

i just slp for round 1hr++...and my head still hurt...dunoe y...i cant slp cos my head seems like cant stop thinking abt e hospital stuff...sian...

then i still dunoe my supp paper result...i check everyday...i dun really mind wat class i gg to...just tt dun kick mi out of e sch can le...cos i dun think my parent can take it...

next mon i think i gg to polyclinic to take my hip x ray...i think only la...cos i still dunoe how to tell my mum...x ray nid $$...right?
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥






Wednesday, April 2, 2008 ♥

this few of days, i have been worry tt i might not be in e same class as my frens...it had been one yr...tgt wif them...i really enjoy myself...tgt wif them, serena, leen, eunice...each of them hv their own charaterisa...

i love to sing wif leen...^^...i mean to kbox...cos she will get high by herself...haha...dunoe how her did oso...haha...next week gg with her...^^...and now she has found someone...i wish her all e best...any problem must tell mi...i'll do my very best to help u...no worries...

i love to go shoppong wif eunice...from her, i hv learn how to be happy go lucky...haha...she will be alway happy...even though she has her own problem...and tts wat i like her abt...^^...very indepence...still finding her one and only...she can be qiute blur sometime...but she sure work very hard for something tt she wans...nice gal...^^

i love to talk to her...when i gt problem...she will tell mi wat to do...^^...enuice...dun worry tt u will bother mi by ur problem...no problem de...i love to hear ur problems...

then serena...dun see her like dun say anything...but...she sure can talk...but only when she wans...haha...not many ppl noe abt this...haha...i love to work wif her...im really happy tt i get e chance to work wif her this attachment...haha...somwhow we will noe wat wach other wans...like we only took 1hr to finish taking 12pt's para...which is very fast...haha...but i dunoe wat she thing la...

then last nite...haha...very funny when we were making e milo for e pt's supper...haha...we were like playing in e pantry...haha...cos i perpared e hot water then she putting e milo...e SN told us to put 3 scpoe...but...e milo like no taste...no smell...then we were lauging very hard...but still try not to make sound...cos there are many staff writing their report...haha...so funny...

serena...dun forget abt us...hope tt u have found ur one and only...then just tell mi watever u wan to tell mi...i dun mind...^^

my frens...dun tell tim tt im a gls...haha...>.<haha
im_sooo_in_LOVE_wif_u..♥